Yeah, I get it, change is hard. Can't teach an old dog new tricks...all that stuff. I get it. But when you love someone, what then? What if you need the love of your life to do something so outside their nature that it seems impossible? Maybe this is mid-life talking, maybe it's desperation, I don't know. All I know is I need more, more domination...more taking control, more dominating me. Not just in the bedroom, no, more in life. Providing security, balance and boundaries. Is that nuts for me to say? I CRAVE to be dominated. To pay for my mistakes, to endure punishment and reward for good submission. How do I get this type of help...because, to me, it's help. Help for the years that I was abused and mistreated by men. I trust only one man, a Beast, but he is my Beast, and I desperately need him to learn to dominate me before I loose myself. I cannot hold on forever!
Please Beast, learn to be my Dom, my lover, my keeper and capture my heart once again like you did so many years ago! I dream of you being not only my very best friend, but my Dom FIRST and forever! PLEASE!!!! I will beg!
Maybe I just need a good fucking...oh yes, that already happened 3 times today, but I don't think you spank me nearly enough. I think you need to buy a crop or a flogger or something-fantasy, yes. Hard for Beast to handle, harder! Will he love me like that, I just don't know? I need it, but I don't know if I mean enough to him to step so far out of his comfort zone that he feels like I have for years. Angel needs to be taken to task, to be dominated. I am afraid you never will Beast. One of the many reasons I drowned my crazy personality in wine after all the crazies go to bed. But then again, you don't read this unless you are handed the keys! I am an open book if you would just open it...why am I not worthy enough?
Your Angel
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